As much as I want to keep new posts up on the blog,
As much as I truly believe consistency creates a presence,
As much as I love to write,
As much as I have a passion for librarianship,
Life still happens.
I admire the folks who can remain consistent in their blogging despite busy-ness that clearly happens for all of us, but I am apparently not one of them. At least, not yet.
I have learned that I need "white space" in my life in order to be my best self. I need time to think and breathe and be. With school starting and hurricanes blowing and training a new assistant and one of my kiddos now attending my school and us both adjusting to her being in high school (and dealing with some serious mean-girl issues) and the other having after-school transportation issues-----well, something had to give.
I've come home weary and unable to "brain" well after shifting back into beginning-of-the-year school mode.
I've come home most school nights with barely enough energy to feed my family, do enough dishes and laundry to keep us rolling, and take hot Epsom salt baths.
My bullet journal and my workouts have suffered, too, and I've passed on nearly every invitation I've received to get together with friends whom I love. Y'all, sometimes I just can't do one more thing.
And I refuse to feel guilty about it.
I think it is far too easy to fall into the trap of believing you have to do all the things and be all the things for all the people all of the time. I don't want to let folks down, but I also know this is truth for me---if I do not practice self-care and self-compassion and listen to my gut about what I need to function as my highest self then I will run out of steam, catch every cold that comes around, feel resentful, act like a martyr, and ultimately be no good for anyone around me.
I'm beginning to catch my breath with this new school year. I'm settling in and feeling less like I'm drowning.
And so here it is---September 9th---and I'm blogging again.
I hope your school year has started off beautifully.
Be gentle with yourself and listen to your gut, friends.
